Friday, June 14, 2013

Goodbye Lydia :(


I'm incredibly sad to announce that Lydia, my sweet little spider girl, has passed on to the big web in the sky. I had noticed that she had been sitting in the same spot for several days, but since her legs were not curled under her and she was long overdue for a moult, I stupidly assumed that she was just saving her energy for the process, and I decided to leave her be. I kept up with her misting as usual and tried to avoid doing anything that could stress her out, but while changing her water yesterday, I accidentally tapped her hind leg and she didn't budge. Since she would normally tense up or begin crawling when I so much as opened her terrarium door, I instantly knew something was very wrong.

While she appeared to be resting firmly with her abdomen on the ground and her front legs propped up on her driftwood, she was like a rag doll when I took her out, her legs and pedipalps completely soft. I tried to set up a makeshift ICU in a small container in an attempt to revive her overnight in case she was still hanging in there, but there was no improvement this morning. It was too late.


It's stupid, I know, but I'm beside myself with grief and I'm devastated because I had grown extremely attached to that 8-legged lady. I really did love her, you know? I'm angry at myself because I didn't realize that she needed help until I wasn't able to help her anymore. I cried most of last night, and I've been tearing up all day whenever I look over and see her empty enclosure, still half expecting to see her come climbing up the wall at any moment.

The day I got her and right before a moult. She looked like a totally different spider!
I thought I would share some of my favorite photos of her today, so you can see what a beauty she was and so that I can look back on happier times. She was such a sweet -- though at times feisty -- little creature. She was a terrible huntress, and it would usually take her days to catch a cricket because she possessed no ninja skills and would blindly throw herself at her prey, which would quickly jump to dodge her incoming attack. I'm sad I'll never get the chance to see her grow to her adult size and obtain her bright blue and pink coloring, but I'm thankful for the time I got to call her "mine."

The last photo I took of her a few days ago. 

3 comments :

  1. Okay, I'll preface this by saying that spiders scare the crap out of me, but I don't think you're stupid at all for grieving the loss of your arachnid companion! The relationships we forge with the non-human creatures in our lives can be profound and I completely understand how devastated you must feel at losing Lydia. I'm so sorry for your loss! ❤

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  2. I just stumbled across your blog today, so my comment is a little late.This post is very moving to me, and I wanted to say I'm sorry for your loss, a beautiful tarantula. You took wonderful pictures of her, they're very lovely!

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